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Saturday, December 27, 2003
I've been so tired... >
I've been so tired doing my homework. Bleargh... hate organic chemistry. Seriously, it is so pening kepala. Somebody save me!!! Wednesday night, i went to granny's house to help out with the wedding. What the hell? She wants the girls to help cut one BIG basket full of onions!!! No way i'm gonna do that. Please!! Cutting onions is the most horrible part of cooking which i hate. Eeeewww.... Anyway, my mum helped out... slicing the onions... together with the rest of my teenage girl cousins and my dad's 2nd eldest sister. Me... well, was pretending to be bz taking care of my baby bro. Haha... I'm so evil! However, help them decorate the house anyway. Make the pelamin and all. I reached home about 1am.
On thursday, went there around 12pm. I was so happy to see my cousins again. Didn't help out that much as i intended to. How to help? When my sister gave me this sulky attitude. She even wanted to walk to greenview sec to check out the school. She said, "Go anywhere but not granny's house and the wedding." Well, whatever it is.... i tell her to go herself if she wants. My brother also can't be bothered to entertain her. Both of us simply sat at one place quietly and watch people karaoka-ing. Anyway, coincidently... shahid's family came around 8pm. I knew that before they came coz i was sms-ing shahid in the afternoon. Hehez... Anyway, i just found out that my aunt was their neighbour. How nice... But shahid nvr come.
A domestic helper served both my grandmas some mangoes. All my cousins grab some bits of them, even me. Hehez... It's from melbourne. Very delicious! My grandmas eat most of them until the very last piece, my maternal grandma ask me whether i want it. But my paternal grandma give me this uncomfortable look thru her eyes. Bleargh... watever it is, of course i would love my maternal grandma to have the last piece. But it's damn obvious, my maternal granndma is not as stingy miser like you. This is what i learn. Enjoy whatever food you can afford. Don't keep the money. Coz you cant bring them to the grave. Even my $10 t-shirt also she said expensive. Haiz...
Anyway, was talking to my mum about jeweleries. Her wedding bracelet is beautiful. Although it actually cost nothing more than a hundred if she were to sell it. Not much gold. Wish i have a bracelet. Everybody have been giving me necklaces but i only have one neck to wear it. I like bracelets that make a lot of noise. The one that goes, "ching, ching." Idah finds it irritating if i'm not wrong. But i like... i just don't know why. Bangles give out a lot of noise too. But not too much. Even my school bag have a lot of keychains just to make noise. Hahaha... i'm such a noisy person. I even have anklets that goes "Chingy ching" as walk. Don't worry, only wear them when i visit my mother side relatives. It's a norm to them. And it goes fantastically if i'm wearing my punjabi. (grin) :)
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Am i pathetic?>
Heyz... had a great time at PS yesterday. Thanks to idah and khai. Haha... Went to watch lotr there. So sorry i was very very late. Haiz... my baby bro miss me! Well, he just won't let me go! Anyway, the movie was great! Almost cried at the ending part. Hehez... Idah, do you really cried? Hmmm.... I must be too absorbed searching for legolas that i didn't notice that. :P Nah... just kidding.
After a nice meal at KFC, we walk around PS. Looking at all the nice nice clothes, clocks, pianos, guitars and lots of other stuff. Hmmm.... Idah wanna borrow the lord of the ring book. I was puzzled why she wanna go to tampines library and borrow the book from there instead. I thought she knows that i have one? So i just kept quiet thinking perhaps it's easier for her to borrow it from the library. Unfortunately, the library was close. And then i told her that i have it at home and may lend it to her if she wants to. She just look at me, surprised. Haha.... If only i had said it earlier rite? Anyway, just take ur time and enjoy the book. But dont forget to look for a job also ya? Hehez... Btw, how ur letter writing goes?
Haiz... don't know whether i should mention this in my blog. Well, it's not that i have problems abt guys rite now. I think i should concentrate on my studies now. Bleargh... at the rate i'm going, i think i'm gonna flunk my econs again. Well, anyway... here it goes. Sometimes, i miss chatting with 2 of my guyfriends. It's not as if i still like them. Wait, of course i still do as a friend. I can sms them if i want to. But afraid i might bother them. Yeah, i've let one of them down by saying something harsh rite here in my blog. I know you don't mind. Perhaps you forgave me. But sometimes i wonder, are we still friends? Or i'm just ur acquaintances? If you are reading this blog, i hope i can chat with you again someday. :)
I can't be bother to go to vjc band concert this year. I'm just so lazy this year... Last year, my sister drag me there. This year, she is excited abt going to watch the dunearn band concert in esplanade with half of the hai sing catholic band. Her reason? The tix is cheap... she is not interested with the band.... but more interested in looking at scenery in that esplanade. Anyway, dunearn band is very good. Heyz, i think i've been out quite often last week. Feeling very guilty because i have been slacking away... having fun... chit chatting with my mum. Haha... Fortunately, she hadn't been nagging at me about coming home late. I didn't do that often anyway. Even if i do, i would have warn her earlier. See.... I'm such an angel rite? (Giggles)
Sunday, December 21, 2003
Not me, not i.... >
I went shopping with a close guy friend of mine yesterday. Help him look for his shoes. Lesson learnt: if you are going out with your guy friend who walk with fast and long pace, please wear sport shoes. So that, perhaps you can fasten up that small pace of urs. Why? I wore sandals bcoz i lazy to wear shoes. And i can't run in the rain. Stupid rain, it was raining the whole day. And stupid me nvr bring a small umbrella. Haiz... Anyway, i didn't manage to buy my skirt from bugis. The skirt that i wanted is gone. So sorry dear~ to make you walk round and round... haha! I feel so bad~
Anyway, gonna watch LOTR with idah tmr. No sign of excitement yet unlike idah. How come i'm sooo anti-climax arh? Nvm... perhaps gonna walk around at PS. It's okay, i'm not in a hurry to finish my homework. Besides, it had been a long time since i went to PS. And school is around the corner. Doubt i'll have the time to merayap anymore.
Okayz.... below is the lyrics of "Not me, not i" by Delta Goodrem. Well, it's not often i would like a slow song. However, this song really catch my attention from the mtv. Kinda describe how i feel.... Hope you guys have a pleasant time listening to it while reading my blog. ;) Yeah... khai fix it up for me. Thank you so much.... :)
You mixed me up for someone
Who'd fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I'll get over that too
It's hard to find the reasons
Who can see the rhyme?
I guess that we where seasons out of time
I guess you didn't know me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, no not me, not I
The story goes on without you
And there's got to be another ending
But yeah you broke my heart it won't be the last time
But I'll get over them too
As a new door opens we close the ones behind
And if you search your soul I know you'll find
You never really knew me
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not me, not I, not I, not I, not I
All you said to me
All you promised me
All the mystery never did believe
No I never cry no I never not me not I
If you think love is blind
That I wouldn't see the floors between the lines
Surprised that I caught you out
On every single time that you lied
Did you think that every time I see you I would cry
No not I, I won't cry
No not me, not I, not I
Thursday, December 18, 2003
"My body is like a movie...." >
I've had a great time shopping with faizah on tuesday in bedok interchange for some neccesities. Yeah... Haven't seen her for such a long time! Miss her so much. We chatted a lot too that day and catch up with each other. Ooooh... she just told me something interesting that day. Khairin is interested in learning how to bake. I simply cant believe my eyes nor my ears. A guy like that can bake?!? But for hari raya this year, he only baked "Honey Cornflakes" (one of my favourites btw). Hehez... anyway, cheh... that one so easy to do. So, it is no big deal. However, for a guy... it is at least something. Unlike some guys, who only know how to eat eat eat only... :P
Yesterday... i had a totally awesome day although i had to wake up early in the morning. Woke up really early to accompany idah for her job interview at the lousy hotel. After they told her to fill up the form. They brought her to a room just to tell her that they dun recruit ppl who are waiting for results. What the hell! Why nvr ask her first or something? Why cannot tell straightaway when she handed in her form? Stupid pplz... Walk around marine parade for a little while before we met misha and faizah at 12pm for lunch at burger king. Haiz... let me get this straight... I don't really like the burgers from burger king. Except for some types of burgers which i will only eat if I have a BIG appetite. Hehez...
Proceeded to misha's house after that and watch "Terminator 3" and "The sweetest thing..". "The sweetest thing" is nice though it's a bit dirty. Yeah... the title of this blog entry comes from one of the songs in the movie. However, i think the character cameron diaz played is somewhat like zuraidah. Though misha really disagreed with me coz in her case, the guy is hmmm... what can i say? Pretend to be blind? Anyway, idah admit that the character is kinda like her in her blog. :) A lesson learnt from there, dun protect ur heart too much. Idah... pls dun be stuck... it's not worth it.
Misha's mum treat us dinner at changi there. She's a very nice lady. She's friendly and approachable. Very cool person. It's amazing that she can get along with our clique. She always have solutions to school problems and now getting a job problems. She is always ready to help us although we feel a little guilty at times by her kindness. Well, perhaps capricorns are all like that.... ready to help ppl. Hehez... Well, i'm not saying my mum is not approachable. It's just that my mum more of the demure type of woman. Anyway, i'm proud to say that i've been catching up with my mum lately. She's amazing! I think if she were to sit for Food and Nutrition "O" level examinations, she can get a distinction easily. Perhaps you always heard of cases of children or teenagers got neglected by their parents. But in my case, i think my mum got neglected by me during school days. When sch starts, i'll spend 3/4 of the day in srjc. Came back to do my hw/revision. Only sometimes i'll watch tv with her. Then off to bed for the next day. Haiz... mundane jc2 life. My nightmare is coming! Help!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, December 12, 2003
Lazy lazy lazy...>
I'm so lazy to get out nowadays i don't know why... I'm even lazier just to organise a hari raya visit to cikgu's house. Lazy to go online in irc. And yet, i manage to have so much fun for the past few days. Till i'm so tired to blog in anymore.
I went to shaheera's (my closest cuz) house on monday. Her mum cook puri for us on that day. Yum! I love it! Dad doesn't really like indian food. He thinks he suppose to put the daging in nicely, put the dahl nicely in the middle of the puri, fold it up like epok-epok and eat. He only eat it like 3 small pieces and said he is full. Come on man... where got enough? Me and sis was like continue eating non-stop. It was so delicious... hard to resist. Ok... enough abt food. Bet you guys are hungry already... haha. After that, we havoc in shaheera's room. Switch on some music for my baby bro to dance. All the guys were dancing with. The girls just laze on the bed and watched at how silly they are. One of them was trying to do the para-para dance but his movements are not slick enough.
I had fun on tuesday. Jln hari raya with my pri sch friends and some girls from poly. Unfortunately, idah can't come along coz she is sick. Thought i'll feel a lill lonely but things turn out just find. Everyone are very nice and friendly. We take photos at every house. Esp at those house that are very beautifully decorated like a palace. I did something stupid too. But don't wanna say it here. So shy! Haha... Rushdah... hush hush ya? Anyway, we all had fun joking and crappingz. We have to eat at almost every house. Unfortunately, something wrong with my body on that day. Feeling nauseous. I don't know why! Just feel so horrible unable to enjoy those wonderful cooking gloriously. Haiz.... However, i still manage to eat a bit of everything. So that i wont feel weak. Not bad... we went to 8 houses that day. Manage to reach home early thanks to yana's bf who drive me and asyurah home. Thanks dear~
Wednesday.... went shopping with my siblings. Brother wanna buy a discman. Sister wanna buy a headphone. I need to buy something for my friend's bday and some gp assessment book to practise. Went to Four Leaves bakery after that to buy tuna bun. Our favourite... haha... The shopping was quite a rush actually. Nevertheless, we have to rush home coz mum go visiting in the evening.
Thurday, did practically nothing. But has a catastrophic fighting with my sister over the internet in the middle of the night. That bitch. Mom thinks i'm the one who control the computer. What the heck! She's the one who said that i'm not suppose to use the computer. So who control who now? Mom was so confuse as Rizqan got frightened by the noise we make. She switched off everything and call my dad to rush home. So both of us can't use the computer yesterday till we come to an agreement. Dad tell sis to shut up most of the time. Haha... Stupid girl... You should know better than to use vulgarities. It's all bcoz of YOU, Rizqan pick up all those words. Coz YOU the only one who use it anytime anywhere! Shame on you! So rough with actions and words. You can say whatever you want girl~ I don't give a damn as long justice is done.
Alrighty, i guess i wont be blogging much over the next few weeks till perhaps when sch starts. Birthday coming. Gonna be 19. I don't think i'm growing up anymore. It's just a number. I can still find myself as childish as before, as senseless as before, as hot-tempered as before. Sometimes i simply hate myself being childish, senseless or hot-tempered. I know i'm suppose to love myself. I still do. But sometimes my emotions got the best of me. And i totally hate it when that happens. Okays, gotta start studying liaoz. Dun worry idah, i'll still make time to go to the movie marathon or visit cikgu. Study study study... there's nothing to blog. Simply like... i have no life like that. I'll still enjoy myself once in a while though. To some of my friends who are still jobless, good luck looking for one. For friends who are taking driving licence, gd luck passing ur tests!
Sunday, December 07, 2003
Love actually is all around... >
Got that phrase from the movie "Love actually". Very nice movie! A lot of characters. A bit confusing initially. But lovely.... Some of their love stories are like fairy tale. However, one is not. The girl is married. However, he just let her know how he feels towards her and why he have been trying not to get close to her although she is his bestfriend's wife. There's this guy name Karl.... so cute!!!! Gorgeous!!! Even misha go gaga over him. Check it out, check it out!
I think my favourite is this man and his housekeeper who manage to communicate a little although they don't understand each other's language. He's english and the girl is portuguese. I simply fine guys cute when they babble in front of a girl. Haha.. Beats me why. Anyway, when the girl left to return to her country. He take a course to learn how to speak portuguese. After he manage to master the language, he went to portugal to find the girl and propose her in portuguese language. The sweetest that happen was... coincidently, the girl learned how to speak english. And ya, she accepted his proposal and replied him in english. I like it becoz it reminds me of myself. The passion for music was initially bcoz of him. Who issit? Figure it out urself. If you guys think i'm trying too hard, nah... Now my passion for music is totally not bcoz of him but it's bcoz i really like it. :)
Went to fish & co after that. It's pretty expensive but i don't care about the cost. Besides, the food is very very nice and it's a lot! 2 plates shared among 3 girls.... and i still have trouble trying to complete my share. As usualy misha keep 'bully' me. :P Then walk around.... went to Watson coz i need to buy something. I got cravings for chocolate after that so i bought some choc too. Yum! Haha.. funny me. Then continue talking as we walk until it's about time we take the mrt to pasir ris and watch my sister's sch concert. The concert was pretty alright i guess. Sis was so happy i was there. I'm glad you appreciate... I'm so proud of you. Okayz... so tired liaoz... gdnitez.
Friday, December 05, 2003
Say Cheese....>
Haha.... have so much fun yesterday that i'm too tired to blog. Alright... bbq in downtown east with my ex-classmate was fun. Hmmm... Yani, Bariah and Shareena not coming. I'm the only mly. My pals from 2s18 are having bbq also. So my classmates didn't buy halal food for me. They get peifen to gimme some food from there. Haiz... okay... At least the food there is better... Hahaz... Anyway, long time nvr see them. Miss them so much! Promised xin hui i'll bring some Hari Raya cookies. We had so much fun although xin hui came so late bcoz she have work. My whole clique was there. And guess what? We turn the chalet into a photo studio. Hahaz.... Take lots and lots of photos. Gonna put them up real soon. :) After much crappingz and joking, we went home about 10pm.
Took bus 21 together with Irene. Hehez... Talk about school and our future plans. After Irene left me, a mad person sitting in front of me turned around and talk to me. Yikes! After he turn to the front, i quickly pretend to sleep. Hahaz... My bbq with 1s18 is cancelled. Good! I dun feel like goin anyway. Too lazy... Too tired... Okay, gonna have a fun day tmr. Going to Bugis with Misha and Idah and watch "Love Actually". After that, perhaps i'm gonna shopping for some neccesities. Then proceed to hai sing catholic to watch my sis's sch concert. Thanks misha and idah! To drag both of you to watch it with me. It's so sweet of both of you to accompany me. :)
Orh well... today, had a good chat with idah. I know how it feels to wait for someone for so long. You wait for him for 6 yrs? Hmmm.... mine is longer ok? Who would resist such a refine guy? Saw him and his mum a couple of days ago at the shop nearby. Both of us simply just smile and say hi. Normal. Talk to his mum for awhile then i went into the shop. His mum is so friendly. Hah... She still remembers me after so long. However, i've decided not to wait for him anymore. Neither i've decided to tell him how i feel. In fact, I have no more feelings for him. It just vanish somehow. Hope it'll be the same to you if you decided to forget him. Hmmm... anyway, IF your gut instince is correct. Then all i can say is, "I'm the luckiest girl on earth and my childhood dreams has come true" :)
Went visiting in the evening. I went to my grandma's friend house. I've always thought that i'm childish. Why? I still keep my barbie doll! BUT I DONT PLAY WITH IT ANYMORE. I don't really play also anyway. Simply dress them up every day in different clothes my doll have. You wont get to see it even if you come to my house lah. I kept it in one special box in a special place. ;) But her friend's daughter... Wow~ She's amazing! Her dolls and toys are kept in boxes. She's 28 btw. Successful in career. Getting married soon. She still play with them sometimes. But no one is allowed to touch them except her. Sweet innocent childhood will nvr come back. However, the sweet fond memories we had will nvr be forgotten.
I also had a long conversation with my sister. About band stuff, music, the experience we had on stage, academic and etc. When we were young, we can nvr imagine that we can bcome bestfriends now. Both of us are like enemies back then. Fight for everything everyday. People have to buy both of us same toys, gifts, dress for equality. No sharing. Or else, one of us will shout, "NOT FAIR!". Perhaps now, we can accept each other's differences and respecting each other more. Give and take. Perhaps bcoz i'm such a good sister ya? ;)
Haha... just kidding lah. Thank you Khai for the song. I love it so much. I think it's very soothing for me to listen to it while reading this blog of mine. Thanks a lot!
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
Screw up day...>
I hate it when i have to change my plans. Really! You ask me whether i'm free today last sunday. And only by tuesday someone said she can't make it? Thanks sha for telling me so much earlier. Coz i can make some other plans instead of slacking at home. Hmmm... Gonna to start my revision, will start my revision... goin to do it very soon... But still, i can't start the engine (the momentum) to study. Haiz... Thank god i have a friend like Misha who always study in tampines library. Now that the exams are over, library won't be that crowded with ppl anymore. Yeah... Christmas coming. Who wanna study? I need to study with someone to start the momentum.
Okay... tmr morning econs lecture. Followed by guitar practice at 12.30pm. What the hell? Last minute tell me got practice tmr. I have bbq with my ex-classmates tmr. Was thinking of going to the downtown east chalet around 1pm and help them out. But haiz.... Nvm... I guess i just leave early lah. Told them i've made other plans. Friday another bbq with my classmates at east coast. Eat, eat ,eat.... wharh... my appetite getting bigger. I'm getting fatter! Heck, next tuesday got guitar club bbq. Haha... Yeah... I'm having a good life here. Saturday, gonna watch "love actually" with idah and misha then proceed to jannah's(my sis) sch concert. Haha... busy week!
Orh ya... Nat told me she and mui mui were thinking of coming to my house for Hari Raya. Why you guys nvr tell me earlier? I would have tell you guys to come on the first day of hari raya in the morning! Coz me grandma cook lots of good good food! But i'm afraid that you guys will feel awkward coz got so many relatives coming. Anyway, it's still NOT TOO LATE for you guys(CHINESE, MLY or WATEVER RACE FRIENDS) to come to my house for Hari Raya. Just tell me early when you wanna come and perhaps me or my mum can cook something for you guys. And ya... Meet my cute little Rizqan too. ;)
